after friday’s rain, a huge weather system came through saturday, bringing 25 – 30 mile an hour winds, with gusts of – well, i’m not sure how bad the gusts were, but the wind was flinging trashcans half a mile down the road, bringing down trees and power lines.
our power went out saturday morning (luckily after i had made breakfast.) duckie and i landed at buffy’s that night, brian and skipper at a local motel. skipper has been feeling pretty lousy the last few days so he needed some company. not that he would ever say so.
had some rough moments over the weekend, due to circumstances beyond our control, a different environment for duckie and for me, lack of sleep, my own disappointment at not being able to nest in the house over the weekend, and an unfortunately ill-timed attempt to step down my lexapro dosage. who would have thought that two and a half milligrams of anything would make such a difference? i suppose with all the other things going on, it would.
i had help from really good people, though – buffy, brett and the girls first and foremost. on sunday, buffy kept a keen eye on duckie to let me take a shower, and brian stepped in for several hours to let me get in a solid nap. good thing, too, because duck had been up since five in the morning. and i get pretty cranky when i’m short on sleep. (“pretty cranky,” by the way, is a euphemism for “borderline psychotic.”)
the last two days have felt like a week. but being back at work and highly caffeinated has helped a lot in regaining a sense of stability. knowing that i have all the makings for homemade chicken soup in the fridge here helps even more. knowing that tonight i can go return to my own house (messy though it probably is) helps the most.
and once again, my friend james has found some perfectly-timed wisdom to share. i’ll link to it, but it’s well worth taking ten minutes to read it in its entirety. it’s a an excerpt from a magazine one of his sangha members loaned him, and pema chodron is a contributor to the article. (i wrote about one of her books a few months back.) there are some very appropriate insights. as usual. there's one section on compassion to one's self that seems especially meaningful to me.
my dad’s health seems to have stablilized over the last few days, which is a comfort. he’s back into his workshop – the best sign i’ve seen in several months. (i’m already drafting my next project request for him.)
i’m hoping skipper is feeling better, too – and if not, maybe some chicken soup will help.